LOOK OUTWARD FEEL GOOD INWARD

When things are hard(difficult)look outward.

I have learnt that when we focuss so inward, we realize just how much we lack. We realize we are not beautiful enough, not tall enough, not blessed enough, not fortunate enough, do  not  have enough friends, are not popular enough and all those things. All this spells one thing -selfishness! I know ....

I have been looking to change jobs, I have talked about it, prayed about it, sent out my resume but still have not gotten the kind of job I seek. As you can imagine, I was not feeling great about myself. While I was still at it, a friend of mine got a promotion to a new job, had a great send off a king size gift and he was gracious enough to share all this information with me. I was excited for him. It felt nice and lifted my spirit.  For a  time I did not dwell on my own struggles and I felt relieved.This was not my success but  someone else's  but it felt good. 

When I focessed away from myself, I felt better even about myself indirectly. May God teach me to look out for others more than look out for my own needs!

But please do pray for me,I still need that job!  

Happy Happy Happy

Today is an awesome day. For some reason i feel so happy for absolutely no apparent reason.

Do you know that feeling when you are smiling to yourself and you feel silly? I do not even have enough cash in my purse so it cannot even be due to that. That I wanted to grab a meal at the mall like I habitually do once a week and I remembered that I had nothing to pay with.

That  I desparately wished that one generous soul would tip me for absolutely no reason and they never did.

What is causing this happy feeling oh God!

thank you anyhow!!!


Happy day :)

DON'T GIVE UP

Do you ever feel like  you have reached the end of your road? I have felt like that before.  Guess what,  i the end is quite far!

Not too long ago, I did feel like my world was crushing in on me . To be precise, exactly two days ago. I understand the point when people totally give up on life and decide to shorten their lives. (Don’t get me wrong, the thought did not even cross my mind but you know....)

Normallly, I do a very good job of remaining calm and collected for the most part. This could be attributed to the fact that I react slowly as I tend to process issues through and later react. When I received very disappointing news exactly 7 days ago, from my work place , I “pretended”that all is well. This was not until five days later when the news sank in and so did this depressing feeling.

When this happened, I completely shut down. On that fateful Monday morning I woke up early as usual and reported to my desk but I was totally lost in myself. I did not have a single ounce of will power to carry on. While there was a lot of activity buzzing all around me, I heard none of it. I was not irritable or impatient or rude but I just was not present. Whether a team mate mentioned something funny or annoying, I did not respond. Meanwhile, my mind kept racing; what is my worth anyway? How did I get here? What does anything in life matter? How can I get away from all this? What would I love to do? I felt so down cast and worse still I did not know what to do to cheer me up.

Now, isn’t this the point when people give up on life? I think it is. So I went to bed Monday morning dreading the next day...... Guess what, I woke up more cheerful on Tuesday morning and every other day has been better. My circumstances did not change, time went by.

This my dear friend is how I proved the good old adage “time heals everything.” I pray I remember this the next time I feel low, to give me some time and everything will be just fine.

CELEBRATE ME NOW

I hate farewells! Maybe not quite as much as I hate new environments. I have also noticed with a lot of concern that people are excessively good when you are bidding farewell. They will say the kindest things about you, declare how they are going to miss you, perhaps throw you a party and give you farewell presents, exchange contacts or even call you.

I say instead of making me a one day hero, celebrate meeveryday.Be kind to me as we interact, apologize when you do me wrong, buy me a present(okay maybe not this really),take me out for a drink. Just make my experience memorable. Do not wait to overdose me when I am on my way out!

As a matter of fact, much as I did not set any New Year resolutions (do people still do that?) and iti s just 3 months to the end of the year, I resolve to make people’s lives memorableeveryday for the rest of the year and here is how;

I shall smile more often.

I will let all the cars in the middle lane turn off before I continue on my way.

I will be polite on the telephone

I will try to find out what makes my neigbours,days and avail it.

I shall say thank you, sorry and please more often and more sincerely.

I will call up my friends regularly

I shallkeep adding to this list.

So help me God!