Do you ever feel like you have reached the end of your road? I have felt like that before. Guess what, i the end is quite far!
Not too long ago, I did feel like my world was crushing in on me . To be precise, exactly two days ago. I understand the point when people totally give up on life and decide to shorten their lives. (Don’t get me wrong, the thought did not even cross my mind but you know....)
Normallly, I do a very good job of remaining calm and collected for the most part. This could be attributed to the fact that I react slowly as I tend to process issues through and later react. When I received very disappointing news exactly 7 days ago, from my work place , I “pretended”that all is well. This was not until five days later when the news sank in and so did this depressing feeling.
When this happened, I completely shut down. On that fateful Monday morning I woke up early as usual and reported to my desk but I was totally lost in myself. I did not have a single ounce of will power to carry on. While there was a lot of activity buzzing all around me, I heard none of it. I was not irritable or impatient or rude but I just was not present. Whether a team mate mentioned something funny or annoying, I did not respond. Meanwhile, my mind kept racing; what is my worth anyway? How did I get here? What does anything in life matter? How can I get away from all this? What would I love to do? I felt so down cast and worse still I did not know what to do to cheer me up.
Now, isn’t this the point when people give up on life? I think it is. So I went to bed Monday morning dreading the next day...... Guess what, I woke up more cheerful on Tuesday morning and every other day has been better. My circumstances did not change, time went by.
This my dear friend is how I proved the good old adage “time heals everything.” I pray I remember this the next time I feel low, to give me some time and everything will be just fine.
No comments:
Post a Comment